Untold Stories Of A Misunderstood Female...

Like everything I always thought I wanted and needed.. I don't.. like im unsure of everything all of a sudden.. and its creepy && scary.
I thought I needed a relationship and a boyfriend to be happy.. because that's how everyone always made it seem like you couldn't be fully happy without 1… and its weird because I always fell for the hype.. but now its like I don't wanna relationship. All I want is a nice circle of friends I can trust and depend on.. male and female.. because relationships are work && pain.. and you focus all your time and energy on them.. that you loose sight of your dreams and let them get away.. for something that might not last long or benefit you in the long run.
Always thought I had to dress and be like everybody else to be somebody.. when in reality all I need to do is be myself.. Jasmine Monet Foreman.. those who like me && accept me for who I am.. are those that matter.. those who are judgemental and try to change me.. are those who don't matter..
I always looked in the mirror and never liked my reflection.. always said stuff like my face is too fat.. I have a bump here.. a light spot there..my nose is too big.. my lips are too tiny.. I was never happy. Now I look in the mirror and see beauty.. I see someone whos strong and not focused on what other people think of her.. only on what she && those close to her feel.. because you cant please everybody in this world.. and ½ the people arent worth the time or effort pleasing.. if they cant accept me the way I am then its their loss…
It made me realize you have to be comfortable, love, and be true to yourself before you can get in a realtionship and be true to somebody else.
Today my mind wandered about love. So many people have said they loved me but lied. But truth is the word " love " is just as strong as the word " hate ". And after somebody has told you they loved you but didn't mean it.. its hard to trust people again. But its kinda funny.. because there are so many levels to love. You can love somebody as in confine in them.. or love them as in fight for them && even take a bullet for them. I have probably 4 friends I would ever consider taking a bullet for.. but a whole lot of friends I love as in always ask them for their opinion && for help && advice && that I chill with.